Off I went for Taxol no. 5/12 yesterday. I am finding that since I have a distinct lack of side effects from these drugs thus far, the dread has ceased somewhat, it’s just a part of my weekly routine at the moment.
This week, I was booked to see my Oncologist for the first time since Taxol/Herceptin started. I decided during the week, I would take the opportunity to ask some of those burning questions I’ve been in some ways not wanting to know the answers to. This is what happened.
Q. 1. People keep asking me if my chemo is working. What should I say?
A. 1. The people asking you that don’t really understand what you’re going through. There is no way of knowing as you have had all of your cancer cells cut out. What we will do though, for the next few years is give you a brain/lung/liver scan to make sure it hasn’t spread to secondaries. To which I said I am going to sh*t myself when you give me those! And he replied, your prognosis is extremely good, please don’t worry. Good answer! He did mention that they always find something, but it’s typically just a process, nothing to worry about….
Q.2. I’ve now put on a few kilos, when will I be able to go on a diet?
A.2. You can go on a diet now. Now, that was not the answer I wanted to hear
Q. 3. I think my hair is growing back. What do you think?
A.3. Your hair is growing back. Cue massive woohoooooo from me!
Q. 4. It’s my 40th birthday the day before my last treatment is due. Is there anything we can do to pull the treatment forward?
A. 4. Here’s my birthday present to you – we are only going to do 11 treatments, and you can finish a week early. Beside myself, so excited with this answer, I now only have 6 weeks to go!
Q. 5. Do you think I should have my birthday party straight after chemo ends or delay.
A. 5. I think you’ll feel well enough so it’s entirely up to you. I am still torn on this one, am thinking I might like to have a full head of hair (at least a pixie cut) and be in tip top trimmed down shape. Jury is still out.
Q. 6. My breast surgeon told me he isn’t going to do my breast tissue expander exchange or nipple reconstruction till my herceptin treatment is over (that means another year!). Would you agree?
A. 6. And this is clearly the best answer I got all day……..I disagree, you can have your operation as soon as chemo is over. That will be me having it done in two months then. Seriously, out of everything this was the big one, I can’t wait to have boobs I’m proud of showing off again :) Bring on those gym change rooms, I’ll be there with my tits out and landing strip for all the world to see before you know it.
No surprises then that after my appointment I finished off Taxol week 5 with a whopping big grin on my face. Practically skipped out of there and am still on a bit of a high – there goes that roller coaster again. Since then I’ve swam 1.5km and ran 8km (gradually going to add a 1km a week now back up to a regular 10km at least once a week).
Also in news this week I have started going out without my head covered. The blade one look I am sporting has for some reason given me the confidence to say what the heck, I am out and proud. So, all up you would have to say, I have really started to turn a corner now. I must admit, am feeling that all is well in my world.